Dialysis dialysis kidney function and more crap!

I make no apologies but just start this with a warning i'm grumpy, and not happy and I'm going to have a moan.  So as most of the people who know me know I do try my very best to keep smiling and plodding on, but i just cant today.

Starting with a positive...Maisy is trying her hardest and is making good progress and although im feeling grumpy today she is able to make me happy. She makes me proud every moment of every day she has put up such a fight and I'm still convinced Anna is helping, as mad as you may think, I'm certain she is!  Her sedation has been reduced enough and she has managed two lots of an hour and half off her ventilator!! :D She went onto somehting called CPAP which helps with her breathing but doesnt breath for her.  I am so so proud of her.  :)

I've had another kidney infection and although this time I didnt have to stay in hospital the whole time which is always a bonus this time round it was painful.  I'm now on dialysis for longer periods, and all in all totally fed up.  I have a lovely daughter and I should be really happy, we should both be at home we should both be with liam yet none of those things are even close to happening... I'm trying my hardest with everything yet my kidney function is basically 0! I just want to have a life that doesnt envolve entirely around a hospital!!! If im not being admitted, i'm having dialysis or appointments, and if i have one whole day im not here for me, i'm here to see Maisy.  Anna always used to say she was in prison when she was in hospital but I always laughed.. now i'm starting to agree!!

But i would like to end saying thank you to my mum and my wonderful friends for all their support and love.  You are all fantastic.  Thank u xx