Good and excting news!

Hello! As a wise person once said good things come to those who wait! And i'm sure my little guardian angel I have had something to do it it! I was really missing Anna yeterday and was making me really unhappy as it suddenly dawned on me how long its been and how soon it will before it will be a year, and two and 5 years ect, but i had a little chat with her, (I'm sure I looked mad!) plus wrote on her wall to get it all off my chest and then after that although I was still missing her like crazy good things started to happen!! So, my good and exciting news!!! Fingers crossed on Wednesday Maisy can come off her vent! I am so excited and so happy i cannot wait to get that tube out of her! When she comes off her ventilator she will have something which is called a CPAP and it will help her breath but not breath for her!! Woo!!! :D Also it will mean (hopefully) more cuddle time!!

I have also found out that I have now been refered for transplant assessment to sort this damn kidney of mine out! Not sure how i feel about it though. Strange very mixed feelings, although i hate being on diaysis all the time and it stops me spending those extra hours with Liam and Maisy or doing anything else I'd like to be doing..while i would love for that to stop (which a transplant would do) The thought of having a part of someone else inside of me is a werid feeling, and yes it's something that I have accepted has to happen for me to have a 'normal' life and be able to give all my time and attention to Maisy but not 100% sure how i'm feeling about it at the moment.  Before I got pregnant I was nearly on the active list, but needed few more tests, because that never happened (as you cant be on the list while pregnant) I have to go nearly back to beginning as my kidney function has got worse. 

So all-in-all a day full of change but a good day!! Exciting things are starting to happen now with Maisy and I cant wait to be a proper mum to my little girl.  She is amazing. I've also seen her beautiful eyes too!!

All my news for now.

Kate xx

It's my blog and i'll moan if I want to.. but first I will introduce myself!

Right, first things first.  My name is Kate and I am 24.  I have a wonderful boyfriend called Liam, and together we have a beautiful baby girl called Maisy.  I have decided to keep a blog mainly for myself to vent and moan and grumble, in the hope I can keep my smile fixed on my face! But also so I have some where to record my thoughts and feeling so one day I can look through it with Maisy :)

There's a reason my blog is called Me and my complicated life! I am quite complicated! I have diabetes and end stages of kidney faliure so have dialysis 3 or 4 times a week.  At the begining of this year I found out I was pregnant, because of complications Maisy decided to come to view the world early and was born 24 weeks on the 16th June.  She is wonderful and during the last couple of weeks me and Liam have been able to hold her and it is FANTASTIC!!  :-D

Liam, Maisy, my family and friends are the most important people to me.  I have amazing friends and family who are all very supportive and I love them all to bits! I live with one of my bestest friends, Meg (although I know split my time between home, hospital and Liams!) I also have my own guardian angel, Anna :) she passed away last year and i miss her every single day but her fighting spirit is rubbing off and i'm sure she is keeping an eye on Maisy. 

I think that is enough for now! But in summary my name is kate and it's often said i lead a complicated life! But it's my life and although complicated I love everyone in it!

Bye for now! Kate xx